Currently Listening Revolutionary 2 By Immortal Technique Dance with the Devil see related

What happens when one person holds your heart while another one holds your dreams. When you feel dead without one and feel most alive with the other.

Choices.

Those choices that make life interesrting, are the same as those that also tend to hurt you the most. In life there is no black or white, but millions of shades of gray. There are those choices that you lose no matter what you choose. I guess you just have to clench your fist and prepare for the worst.

If it makes any of you feel better, you're never in it alone.

Currently Listening Sounds Of Summer - The Very Best Of The Beach Boys By The Beach Boys see related

So my friend slept over Thursday and Friday. I didn't get to sleep till the sun came up. Ordered than 555 thing and ate all of it. Major desecrating going on after than... Talked to some old friends until both our phones ran out of batteries. I seriously couldn't sleep till maybe 6 in the morning. Watched Southpark before bed and the gingers scared me. So we listened to my near perfect CD while talking about girls and video games. I'm such a loser. My CD answered some questions that came up during the conversation and I was like O.o? Yeah... Then we talked about the girls in our life, both previous and current. Lets say some major descion making was going on that night. I figured mine out with a difficult question. If both were somewhere in Texas and hurt, who would I pick up first? That was a tough descision, but it couldn't be helped. I barely remember anything that happened, maybe cuz I was talking while half asleep. And when that happens, we say stupid stuff such as:

"Don't count your eggs before they hatch." ( meant to say chicks, but it came out sounding ok.)

"Four things I can't live without that start with the letter G: God, girls, games, General Tso's Chicken" ( I LOVE General Tso's Chicken with a passion.)

"O man...I can't stop thinking about Dynasty Warriors and (name here)" (That was just my sleep talking...or was it?

Anyways. Sleepovers are fun. I learn so much, but I don't get to sleep either...Meh, sleep is for the dead, elderly, and babies. None of those I fit into, so HA!

And before I forget, we had a pillow fight. I got knocked out in 1 hit. I was kinda busy playing video games to bother, but that's just sad. I guess that's it.
-Goodnight Moto

Currently Listening Sounds Of Summer - The Very Best Of The Beach Boys By The Beach Boys see related

Wouldn't it be nice?

I miss the oldies. Recently all I've been listening to are the classics. I miss the old days when things were simpler. Been watching too many chick flicks, but that's OK. Crying is good for you...sometimes.

Currently Listening Ballad Collection By X (Japan) Say Anything see related

What happens when living becomes more of a chore than something worth enjoyment? What happens when living gets boring and tedious? If I stopped for a day would anyone notice? Just stop talking, stop communicating, just stop... would anyone even notice? If I cut school one day and went to a hospital, found an empty room, put on some patient clothes and just lay in that room, how long would it take for anyone to find me? A day, three days, a week, a month, maybe a lifetime? Would they even come after me? Would you come looking?

Well Cy was been feeling down with the weather even though I do love the rain. Cy's been wondering about, life, love, and dreams. I like to think love is a strong feeling that acts like a glue to keep us all together. Then again, Cy has weird thoughts like that. I actually did some research and here is what I came to understand...

The first time you see someone and it's like love at first sight. The non verbal moment between you and them. The special click... all thanks to pheromones, nature's special ingredient that creates that moment. Raw lust is caused by high levels of testosterone. Sweaty palms, punding heart, and infatuation, all caused by higher than normal levels of norepinephrine. And the awesome high of love, caused by a rush of phenylethylamine and dopamine. Then for "true love" that is caused by the stabilization of serotonin and oxytocin. And if everything just doesn't work out between the two, you can blame it on decresing levels of vasopressin.

It seems love is not quite the romantic thing it seems in fairy tales and Disney movies. If this is all a dream, please wake me up...if not, just kill me.

===edit===

Kinda dark huh? Well that's life for you. So much drama happening around me. It almost makes me feel like this was all plotted, as if life itself was just a big play. Can't really complain about anything though, I mean, life has it's ups and downs but...that's kinda what life is about. Mystery, desire, excitement, and even disappointment. I don't know about you, but for me, I say that just makes life all the more exciting to live. It's like the ultimate reality show and you're the star. Plus it's interactive too, how much more real can you get.

Life is way too short to be doing the same thing over and over and over each day. It should be a new adventure as the morning sun rises and the end of a chapter as the day ends. Life is your story, it is what you make it. Every life a story, a story so vast, so uncomprehensible, so unprdictable, it would take a lifetime to tell. If your life was a story, would it be worth telling? Would mine be worth listening to?

Recently it seems as if I'm trying to pull together all the loose ends. I mean it's good to know that people can depend on you, but it gets tiring. Then I wonder why. Why try to control things that cannot be controlled? I can accept that one day I must die, but there's still the hesitance in saying that. You know it's inevitable and yet you can never really prepare for it. Maybe that is my flaw. The weakness of humans is that we cannot prepare for the unevitable death.

In the end, a man's life it but a small ripple in the river of time. One can only shed a tear at the end of life, and then...move on. It's true what they say that it's easier to forgive an enemy than a friend. Your enemies are expected to cause you pain so you become callous to their actions. But friends make you open up, and then when you are crossed, it hurts even more. I guess that's a trade off you have to make. Is it worth it all?

Sometimes I wish I could just fast forward time to see if it's really worth it all. I guess we'll just have to wait and see. I'll take it a day at a time. Won't you join me?

Currently Listening Ballad Collection By X (Japan) see related

If you woke up this morning
with more health than illness,
you are more blessed than the
million who won't survive the week.

If you have never experienced
the danger of battle,
the loneliness of imprisonment,
the agony of torture or
the pangs of starvation,
you are ahead of 20 million people
around the world.

If you attend a church meeting
without fear of harassment,
arrest, torture, or death,
you are more blessed than almost
three billion people in the world.

If you have food in your refrigerator,
clothes on your back, a roof over
your head and a place to sleep,
you are richer than 75% of this world.

If you have money in the bank,
in your wallet, and spare change
in a dish someplace, you are among
the top 8% of the world's wealthy.

If your parents are still married and alive,
you are very rare,
especially in the United States. 

If you hold up your head with a smile
on your face and are truly thankful,
you are blessed because the majority can,
but most do not.

If you can hold someone's hand, hug them
or even touch them on the shoulder,
you are blessed because you can
offer God's healing touch.

If you can read this message,
you are more blessed than over
two billion people in the world
that cannot read anything at all.

You are so blessed in ways
you may never even know.

  Just some filler before I can get pics in